Hi everyone. It has been years (and that is no exaggeration) since I have posted on here. And maybe I'm just posting this for myself. But, I wanted to wrap things up, as I am no longer posting on this blog. I'm starting a new one. I don't know what it will be called or what I will post on it, but I know that I need a fresh start.

Looking over my old posts, I see now that writing has always been a kind of therapy for me. I think that I have strayed too far away from it, and seeing how passionate I was at thirteen years old... well, it makes me feel like I need to step back into my passion for some security. Life is (and has been for a long time) quite hectic. So, in order to express how I feel about things, I want to write about them.

Also, I wanted to address my short lived series of chapters about my heartbreak at 13 years old. I want to because, if anyone so happens to stumble across this blog from my home town or my college, I want them to know what ended up happening, and how I feel about it now, as an almost adult.

To my past self:

Hey there. I know you feel as though your heart is shattering into a million pieces. That you can never get over this boy, or this moment. But mom was right when she said that when you look back on this, it will seem small and insignificant.

The truth is that it wasn't that boy's fault for not liking you. To be honest, you guys never talked. So there's no use in blaming him for not liking you. Maybe he deserves some blame for spreading rumors about what happened and making you feel like you were pathetic and weak. But everyone makes mistakes at that age. In fact, everyone makes mistakes period. You did. So did he. But at the end of the day, this is all in the past.

Now to the important part: You're in college now! this August you started a new chapter of your life moving to college and starting classes. And though the classes are tricky, you love it. You're making friends, studying, going to events-- the whole nine yards. Living the dream. You made it. The dream of going to college that you've had for so long has been finally realized. And the crazy thing is, now you have even more ambitious dreams.

And, in case you were wondering, you do have a boyfriend now. His name is Alex. You have been dating him for over a year now. You love each other and are best friends. The only downside? He lives 3,100 miles away. But even so, you work hard to stay together. You video chat every night and he even visited you this summer. He's coming back for Christmas break. Your going out next summer. And you're even planning on studying abroad in England.

The point is, that even being thousands of miles away from each other, you stay strong and know that you will make it work. And what you have with Alex, well... let's just say that you couldn't have picked a better guy. He's understanding, kind, logical, and smart (even though he won't admit it). He is adventurous and loving, and so much more than you could have ever dreamed of. Most importantly, he treats you right. That is what you deserve.

It just goes to show that sometimes being patient and waiting can pay off. More than pay off actually. It can get you a kiss under the stars while waves crash in the back ground and the love of your life.